i need to watch more films.
i need to experience more.
i need to have more conversations with different people.
i need to learn how to drive.
i need to not worry about being polite and likeable.
it feels like im loosing grip.
i had expected to have figure myself out by now.
but it's as if i reapplied the layers and walls between me and the rest of the world,
that it is hard to connect with others, and in turn hard to connect with myself.
there is just too little to share and compare and mirror-reflect.
in my own little world
my mind loops in strange little circles.